Daniel's birthday and the BIG project

My younger brother finally turned 21 yesterday. Of course, he organized a home birthday bash and invited all his buddies. Mum's house was very cramped and crowded with people until me and Lunz had to squeeze to find a place to sit. The little one kept telling me, it's birthday party! It's birthday party! Daddy didn't followed us to the party. He stayed at home to continue on our BIG project....

When the house was still not crowded yet....

Lunz and second aunt.

Me and second aunt.

Younger bro and us.

I love the cake. The decoration looks great but the filling was so-so la. Cost RM150.

Cake cutting.

Since the house was very crowded, both me and Lunz had no where to go. So, we lingered in my old room and played with the camera. The little one was erm...a talented photographer. He took a few shots of me and kept on laughing once he captured every shot. Pity mummy, had to pose for him all the while.

My photographer boy not bad huh?

Back to daddy's BIG project. We are in a process of self-renovating the house. Everything is D-I-Y. Currently, we got the ceiling in the living room and dining room painted. We got the air-cond serviced and the leaking roof fixed. Last weekend we worked on Lunz room. We painted the ceiling, changed the ceiling fan and we even painted the wall. I chose lavender color for the wall. It's called Candy Floss. Pearl gloss paint of ICI is so expensive now a days. Both daddy and I made a mistake. We did not diluted the paint with some water. So, in the end, one can of 5 litre paint was not enough for his room. We painted double coats but in the end, due to the lack of paint, the walls at the end of the room only have one coating. I tried to buy from the shops nearby but non of the shops sell ICI paints.

Hence, we have to abandon the project for a while until we get a new can of paint to continue with the second coat. And I have to get it from the same shop where I bought the first can, which was in Taman Lensen. Guess have to wait until weekend. Daddy commented the wall color seems to suit a girl more than a boy. I replied, ok ma, the color makes the boy looks romantic. Hahaha...in fact I was the one who fell in love with the color. And besides it suits the color of the wall lamp. I will take a photo when everything is done later. To show the new room.

When we can't continue with the wall painting, daddy did something else. He varnished the wooden parquet and the door of Lunz's room. So, everything looked brand new now...hahaha...only in his room. Although the varnishes smells terrible but I'm glad daddy took up the job. Thanks daddy! Daddy said, the remaining from the second can will be used to paint the walls in our own room later.

Poor little one had to entertain himself while we worked. He played alone, watched TV alone. So kesian la see him so lonely. There was once we were busy painting his walls when he passed by then we told him, it's your room room. The next thing he did was he went and grabbed his pillow and blanket. He told us, he wants to sleep in his own room. Then, I told him the room is not ready yet. When it's finished you can sleep inside. He happily skipped away. Boy...isn't he cute?

I'll need to decorate the room further, maybe continue with my mural as there are still loads of acrylic paint left. I'll see how because previously the mural was to close up all the old paint on the wall. But now, since we have new coatings of paint, I'm a bit reluctant to spoil the wall. Or maybe I'll continue after all. I will put up curtains, all his toys, a table for bedside lamp and a double bed. I'll get the queen-size bed from mum. Then, I'll have to get extra queen-size bedsheets. I even thought of putting droplets of essential oil to burn, to ease him for a better sleep.

Those come later, when the painting is done. And after all the decorations, the transition of getting him to sleep next door without us will certainly take up some time.

Mixed Feelings

I have been blasted by good and bad news recently. Can't seems to describe my mix feelings but I guess these are all parts and parcels of life. Sometimes I feel happy but in another moment I can feel down. Guess the bad things are more than the good ones or maybe I was being too emotional. Should not think so much, after all you still need to live life even though you are unhappy. It wasn't so bad after all, knowing that daddy, parents and the little one are around. :)

Bad news:

1. I still miss my grandma. Can't believe someone you love is there and the next moment she was gone, forever. Humans are so so so fragile. When you were gone, your records were deleted, your images faded, living people resume their lives forgetting you ever exist....but only the closest felt the lost at the depths of their hearts. I still dream of her until today....and she will only lives in memories.
2. My cousin is filing for divorce. Her husband had an affair (bloody man!). Although I'm not so close to her from young but to me, she has always been those that you would categorized as a beautiful woman! High nose and cheekbones, fair skin. Bastard man, never satisfied with a beautiful wife. I kinda pitied my cousin because she has 2 child with him and she has not been working since she got married, which was 4 years ago. Lesson learnt ---> Women must work. Don't depend too much on men because if they betray us, we will be in deep shit!
3. My career still sucks. I need to dig a path out from here if I wanted a better financial means. I'm working on it but sometimes to get a good job with a good working environment, high pay, reasonable distance and good benefits really does requires some time and opportunities. You may think I'm too demanding, that's why I'm still here but the thing is if you want to job hop, make sure it's worth leaving here for it. Until then, my butt still sticks around here. Sometimes I wonder what is the point of being a good grade student when you got yourself landed on a degree course that has no value to the working market. The answer is, you will get yourself slowly dying. No matter how well you excelled in school, how many semesters you were listed in the Dean's List, it was just meaningless when you made a wrong step in the course you studied. Don't even believe when people says a degree is just a passport to the working world, it really doesn't matter thou. 10 years ago, this maybe true. You can find yourself a good job even though you don't belong to that line as long as you have the 'passport'. Culture changes now. Too competitive as there are too many graduates. But I guess, GOD will have HIS planning for everyone of us. And of course, with a little effort from us.
4. I love mum and dad so much that sometimes I felt bad when I couldn't help them. I mean they are the whole world to me and yet when they requested for some financial help, I felt helpless. Helpless because I can't seems to help them. I should spend more time with them while they are still around.

"If one fine day I find that daddy and mommy has died before me, please do not attempt to tell me life must go on...because I will not find a better reason to live for...

If daddy and mommy will never find out, please let me leave them first, and after which please do me a favor by telling them " If there's an after-life, please let me to be their daughter again..."

If daddy and mommy can be re-born at Pure land, please let me bow three times under their feet, and let them know they have been the greatest parent to a child like me...."

-Yenny-

5. Speaking about my good ol' sister, Yenny, she will be off to Makati in less than 36 hours. I wished her luck in her new career and hope she enjoys learning new experience. It's a bad news to me, because I knew I'll be missing her like mad when she is not around. Although I seldom see her but the idea of her miles away sure makes a difference.
6. Not really getting along well with my brothers. Maybe they have negative thoughts about the plea that I asked from them to help both of our parents. I don't know. We are slowly drifting apart. I don't care and I wouldn't want to compare. I love my parents above all and I'll carried out my responsibilities for as long as I can. Who bothers if they do their part or not? To love is not to be calculative. I love my parents and I love them wholeheartedly. As long as I fulfilled my responsibility, it's fine enough to me. I will not care what they think of me.
7. A really good friend of mine has the tyroid problem. This sickness has caused her weight to drop tremendously, about 5kg in just 1 month. I felt a stab of pain when I saw her, she was so thin already. Isn't it ironic? She told me she wanted to be slim before all this, she had success by going to the gym, dieting and even tried out detox tea. And yet now, she told me she dare not even look at the scaling machine. She was afraid she got any thinner. She told me the sickness has caused her to have to intake pills for months, insomnia and trembling hands and legs. The only treatment she can give herself is try to relax as much as possible. Hope she gets well soon....

Good news:

1. Although I don't consider myself wealthy, I have a good family life. Nobody can guarantee good and lasting marriages ahead. Not even my mum can guarantee my dad or the people that I knew. But, this is all about life. Mysterious and unpredictable. I don't know about 20 years later, but at least now I'm certain that I'm happy with daddy and I'll live my every moment into it.
2. Lunz is really a big boy now. Yenny told me that I should think of getting him a lil' brother or sister because she said Lunz is really very shy and by being a big brother will make him more responsible. Lunz is really a quick learner, not to brag about my own son but I'm really proud of him. He is one of the best student in his kindi, he knows how to do his homework by himself, I don't have to teach him. I just read the instructions to him (Such as, circle the pairs that has the consonant H) and he seems to understand. He knew more Chinese letters than I do and I even heard from daddy yesterday that Lunz was able to arrange all the alphabets backwards starting from Z to A in just split seconds. Honestly, I will let him develop naturally. Meaning I won't pressure him in studies. If he is good, he will be good nevertheless.
3. 2 very pretty girlfriends of mine finally got pregnant after 1 year of marriage. Congratulations to them!

Another Bad Fever

Lunz was having a temperature on Sunday night before bedtime. So, I gave him the fever syrup and put him to bed. Both me and daddy had already decided to bring him to the paed. on the following morning because it could be some throat infection that caused the fever. By morning, Lunz still had the temperature and the paed. prescribed some medication to us. According to the paed., the bottle of antibiotic should not be started until the fever worsen or on the following day. Whichever comes first. The paed. told me just to give Lunz the fever syrup plus the normal, phlegm, flu and cough syrup. He told us it was just some minor throat irritation.

How absurd that could be? I certainly don't believe the throat infection was minor because Lunz was already experiencing fever. If there wasn't any throat infection, how could the fever developed? And the most stupid part was, I can only give the antibiotic when the temperature from the fever rise higher. Ain't I risking my baby's life?

So, I decided to follow my own instincts and common sense, I ignored the paed. and gave Lunz the antibiotic as well. By afternoon, mum told me the fever was still there and it hadn't gone off. Pretty unusual because once you intake the fever medicine plus antibiotic, at least the fever will subside a bit although no doubt it will come back later until your throat clears off. But hey, it's normal for the fever to come and goes off, rather than not subsiding at all. By the time I reached home after work, the fever was still there. I tried sponging him but he just won't let me touched him. He only allowed me to put a wet hanky on his forehead for a couple of times and that's it. Even for those I have to say nice things to him.

Even after his third intake of the fever syrup, the temperature got worse. I could feel his whole body was very hot as if it was being burnt. Every time my kid has fever, I was blardy worried. I can't imagine having more kids, I think I will faint from all the worries.

Daddy immediately took us to a GP doctor nearby our house. This was because I used our in-house digital thermometer and realized his temperature was at 39.3 degree celcius. Quite high and scary. To my surprise, the GP doctor acted professionally. It is quite difficult to get a good GP doctor and I was glad a professional one came to my rescue yesterday. The doctor took Lunz temperature, got a shock and asked us why we did not attempt to do something earlier when his temperature was that high. So, the doctor inserted the paracetamol tablet into Lunz's backside and the little fella managed to release a tiny 'OUCH!' few minutes after that and when daddy asked him later, "Where pain pain?" The little one replied, "Si fatt (buttock) pain pain" instead of his throat. Not an answer we expected. Hahaha....

Then the doctor prescribed a different type of antibiotic and fever medicine for us. It has been 2 nights that I woke up constantly to check his temperature and to feed him the syrups. The medicine will finish by today and I guess I need to bring him back to the doctor for a second round of consultation if the fever still persists. It worries me sick to see my boy not well. Hope he will be fine and healthy soon.