I'm actually quite free at work now, just counting down to my last day in MTC. Apart from finishing up some pending stuffs, I don't know what else I can do. Nothing much to update in particular, because all of us are good. I'm just looking forward to Ipoh trip next week and my two weeks of rest before I start at the new place. I need to figure out where to bring the lil' one for some school holiday trip. Maybe just a day trip at Genting or Sunway Lagoon Park. Not sure yet but will definitely have one.
Let me just update about the lil' one a bit. He is currently 32kg....I know...I know, a lil' overweight for his age but luckily he is very tall. So, can cover up a bit. His height is almost my chest level now. Honestly, don't think he looks like a 5-year old though. He is getting talkative, cheeky and more mischievous now. And he also talks back now. I recalled one incident where I said, eat med-cine! He corrected me and say, no! It's not med-cine. It's ME-DI-CINE!
There are times when he got out from bath, saw the pile of clothes in the laundry basket and said to me, washing machine spoil dy. Which is true. Our washing machine is currently out of order and I need to hand-wash the clothes. He saw me a couple of times hand washing the laundry. Then I told him jokingly while wiping him dry with a towel, ya, washing machine spoil dy, mummy need to wash....you don't wear so many clothes ok.
Then, you know what he did next?
My darling boy approached the full laundry basket and pushed all the clothes down, hence, it was more compact and the pile of clothes were not so high compared to previous. There ya, he said. Meaning, the laundry basket was not full yet, my mommy don't have to wash first. Haha....at the age of 5 1/2 already know how to think about the mother.
He never failed to make us laugh everyday. There was one fine day, when I picked him up from school, he proudly showed me an envelope. Inside, was a Mickey Mouse birthday invitation card. Told me in the car, that it's Nick's (his classmate) birthday. I asked him, you wanna go to Nick's birthday? He said yes. First time so far of his 5 1/2 years of life, he told me he wanted to go to his friend's birthday party. Normally, he likes to stay alone, being alone, rather anti-social. But, I found out lately, he started to mix around and he kinda wanted/like companies. Even his school teacher told me, that now he talks a lot in school. My boy has really grown up.
Back to the envelope, when we reached home, according to daddy, he saw the lil' boy chucked the envelope into the mailbox and summoned for his daddy to go near the mailbox where he was waiting. Then, the bugger lifted up the mailbox flap and retrieved the envelope inside. He told daddy, that he has a mail!! Haha...he threw the envelope into the mailbox and pretended he has a mail! Hahaha...cheeky rite? Too much of Mr. Bean.
I also took him for an MMR second booster recently and the boy did not cried at all. Both daddy and I praised him for being a strong boy and he was very proud of himself. He kept on talking a lot, a proud expression/boost of his glory. I have read before in a book that raising a boy is different from raising a girl. A girl will get every confidence she wants or has, but a boy needs to be told. To grow up being confident, a boy need to feel loved and praised by the parents. A girl's confidence is there naturally but for a boy, you need to build his confidence. And that can be done by telling or gesturing how much you appreciate and love him. I guess, it's true.
There are so many things to tell about him, like when we are at home on weekends, every 15 minutes he will open the fridge and asked me, hmmm....mummy...what to eat? Haha....wai sik mao!
So, this Sunday is Nick's birthday party. I can't wait to bring him there and see how he interacts with his friends~!
Friday, October 29, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
Upset
I would like to add another disappointment and regret to my life chapter today. I will start with the disappointment first because it's not as bad as the regret. I was sick with a bad sore throat infection on Sunday, so I informed my colleague who is the secretariat for the exhibition which I mentioned in my previous post that I'll be coming in late for the set up on Monday. She was fine with that. Ok. The initial plan was to stay at the Traders Hotel, KL during the entire exhibition roll out, 4 days 3 nights. Hubby and Lunz will stay together with me as well and I already promised to bring Lunz for a good dip at the pool. Hubby will also take care of Lunz while I work, like bringing him to PetroSain in KLCC and bla bla bla. Everything was well planned earlier. Then the following day, which is today, while I was packing my luggage, I received a call from mum. She told me grandma was in a critical stage and my uncle was asking everyone to rush down to the Gleneagles Hospital for a final look at her.
Without thinking twice, I immediately rush to mum's house to fetch her to the hospital because I know I still have some time before I need to go to the exhibition centre. And it's my responsibility as a daughter to bring her there since I'm free at that time. Hubby fetched Lunz from school, of course.
The disappointment I felt today was actually linked to the regret. Knowing my grandmother had passed away, I know I can't be totally available to work during the exhibition. Still panicking and upset, I immediately made a call to my exhibition secretariat colleague and told her the incident before judging properly. I told her I'm able to come on Tuesday but on Wednesday I definitely couldn't make it as I have to attend the funeral at the memorial park (chut san). I told her I badly wanted to be at the exhibition as everybody in MTC is practically waiting for this big show. Even myself, I spent a week straining my eyes in front of the PC rushing for the business matching schedule for over 200 companies, just for this exhibition. I don't want to miss it, I want to be a part of it. Plus, I have already promised my boys that we will have some KL escapade.
My colleague told me, she will arranged but she called me back in the next 5 minutes and told me not to come to the exhibition anymore. She had already found a replacement for me. I tried to call her back more than 3 times just to let her know, I can make it but still she rejected me. In short, I'm completely eliminated from this project. Another colleague told me, it will not be fair if you aren't there for the entire function and yet you wanted to stay at the hotel. You should gave the opportunity to your replacement as he will be taking over your task. He should be staying in the hotel instead. No point you can make it one day but not the other.
I thought, true...if I'm her, I wouldn't let myself into the shit of arranging all this just for a person. Why should I? I've plenty other arrangements to worry about. Might as well I cut out now on those unnecessary worries. It really felt bad you know, being cut out entirely from an anticipating project. It's like you are totally not involved. No credits. Hubby said I shouldn't have informed my colleague too early. I should have gone there to work first because the 'chut san' date wasn't even confirmed yet at the moment but I have already called my colleague and told her so much. I said, I was just thinking that telling her early would facilitate her to find a replacement for me on the second day of exhibition but never did I know she eliminated me totally from it to save her headache. Hubby commented, that's why. You always think of other people first but you never think for yourself. You can't be so honest and simple in the working world. No one will sympathize nor will pity you. Kindness is your virtue but it is also your weakness.
I was taken aback from his statement. But I know it's true. I hear every single comment from him and told myself not to be this foolish anymore. I was really disappointed but I guessed I have learnt my lesson. The only thing that made me felt better was knowing that I'm leaving soon from this company. So, it's fine if I don't get any credit.
This was nothing compared to the regret I felt today. As I mentioned earlier, I was fetching mum to the hospital and we were actually in front of the hospital entrance when she received a call. My dad told her that grandma was already on the way back to my uncle's house. So the first thing that came into my mind was I need to make a quick turn down to Kepong from Gleneagles Hospital. Without hesitating, I made my way immediately there. Mum told me if I need to go to work, I can leave her at the hospital, she will take a cab. I will not of course, how could I just dumped my mother at this moment, so I told her I'll fetch her to uncle's house. I was telling myself silently, if I leave you to take a cab, I'm a 'sui lui'. If I can't make it to take you in time to see your mother go, I'm a 'sui lui'. All I know that time, I don't care what it is, I must bring my mum there on time. No matter what. I know how much she wanted to see her own mother for the final time. Everyone does when it comes to this situation.
As I rushed down to Kepong, almost reaching my uncle's house, mum received another call. This time from my aunt. Aunt told us that grandma has already passed away.....in the hospital. I was like...OMG...why dad gave us the wrong info? Grandma was still in the hospital and there was no way I can turned back to the hospital now because she was practically gone. So near and yet this happened. We were there at the hospital already when the call from dad came in. If only I don't panicked, if only I'm logic enough, I would have confirmed with the relatives who were there in the hospital instead of listening to dad. And dunno, where the hell dad got the news from. I regret instantly on the spot and to such great extend, I was strucked dumb. I just parked my car by the road side with my double signal on and with mum crying badly next to me. This time, I really 'sui lui'. If dad or bro fetches her, the outcome might be different. I wasn't calm enough, that's why. Mum panicked but I'm not supposed to be. I failed to send her to see her mother for a final look and I know she will regret that for the rest of her life.
I consoled her by telling her, sometimes it's not good to witness your beloved passed away in front of you and grandma loves you so much, she don't want you to witness her death. It's fated. But no matter what I said, I can't stop feeling regret and hurt because she was so upset. I can only be there for her when she needs me and hope time will heal everything.
Amitabha
Without thinking twice, I immediately rush to mum's house to fetch her to the hospital because I know I still have some time before I need to go to the exhibition centre. And it's my responsibility as a daughter to bring her there since I'm free at that time. Hubby fetched Lunz from school, of course.
The disappointment I felt today was actually linked to the regret. Knowing my grandmother had passed away, I know I can't be totally available to work during the exhibition. Still panicking and upset, I immediately made a call to my exhibition secretariat colleague and told her the incident before judging properly. I told her I'm able to come on Tuesday but on Wednesday I definitely couldn't make it as I have to attend the funeral at the memorial park (chut san). I told her I badly wanted to be at the exhibition as everybody in MTC is practically waiting for this big show. Even myself, I spent a week straining my eyes in front of the PC rushing for the business matching schedule for over 200 companies, just for this exhibition. I don't want to miss it, I want to be a part of it. Plus, I have already promised my boys that we will have some KL escapade.
My colleague told me, she will arranged but she called me back in the next 5 minutes and told me not to come to the exhibition anymore. She had already found a replacement for me. I tried to call her back more than 3 times just to let her know, I can make it but still she rejected me. In short, I'm completely eliminated from this project. Another colleague told me, it will not be fair if you aren't there for the entire function and yet you wanted to stay at the hotel. You should gave the opportunity to your replacement as he will be taking over your task. He should be staying in the hotel instead. No point you can make it one day but not the other.
I thought, true...if I'm her, I wouldn't let myself into the shit of arranging all this just for a person. Why should I? I've plenty other arrangements to worry about. Might as well I cut out now on those unnecessary worries. It really felt bad you know, being cut out entirely from an anticipating project. It's like you are totally not involved. No credits. Hubby said I shouldn't have informed my colleague too early. I should have gone there to work first because the 'chut san' date wasn't even confirmed yet at the moment but I have already called my colleague and told her so much. I said, I was just thinking that telling her early would facilitate her to find a replacement for me on the second day of exhibition but never did I know she eliminated me totally from it to save her headache. Hubby commented, that's why. You always think of other people first but you never think for yourself. You can't be so honest and simple in the working world. No one will sympathize nor will pity you. Kindness is your virtue but it is also your weakness.
I was taken aback from his statement. But I know it's true. I hear every single comment from him and told myself not to be this foolish anymore. I was really disappointed but I guessed I have learnt my lesson. The only thing that made me felt better was knowing that I'm leaving soon from this company. So, it's fine if I don't get any credit.
This was nothing compared to the regret I felt today. As I mentioned earlier, I was fetching mum to the hospital and we were actually in front of the hospital entrance when she received a call. My dad told her that grandma was already on the way back to my uncle's house. So the first thing that came into my mind was I need to make a quick turn down to Kepong from Gleneagles Hospital. Without hesitating, I made my way immediately there. Mum told me if I need to go to work, I can leave her at the hospital, she will take a cab. I will not of course, how could I just dumped my mother at this moment, so I told her I'll fetch her to uncle's house. I was telling myself silently, if I leave you to take a cab, I'm a 'sui lui'. If I can't make it to take you in time to see your mother go, I'm a 'sui lui'. All I know that time, I don't care what it is, I must bring my mum there on time. No matter what. I know how much she wanted to see her own mother for the final time. Everyone does when it comes to this situation.
As I rushed down to Kepong, almost reaching my uncle's house, mum received another call. This time from my aunt. Aunt told us that grandma has already passed away.....in the hospital. I was like...OMG...why dad gave us the wrong info? Grandma was still in the hospital and there was no way I can turned back to the hospital now because she was practically gone. So near and yet this happened. We were there at the hospital already when the call from dad came in. If only I don't panicked, if only I'm logic enough, I would have confirmed with the relatives who were there in the hospital instead of listening to dad. And dunno, where the hell dad got the news from. I regret instantly on the spot and to such great extend, I was strucked dumb. I just parked my car by the road side with my double signal on and with mum crying badly next to me. This time, I really 'sui lui'. If dad or bro fetches her, the outcome might be different. I wasn't calm enough, that's why. Mum panicked but I'm not supposed to be. I failed to send her to see her mother for a final look and I know she will regret that for the rest of her life.
I consoled her by telling her, sometimes it's not good to witness your beloved passed away in front of you and grandma loves you so much, she don't want you to witness her death. It's fated. But no matter what I said, I can't stop feeling regret and hurt because she was so upset. I can only be there for her when she needs me and hope time will heal everything.
Amitabha
Friday, October 15, 2010
Finally.....
I was drop dead busy recently with MTC's first of its kind international timber exhibition to be held in KL Convention Centre next week. In fact, all the staffs are running here and there preparing for the big show. I was assigned to the exhibition secretariat to help out some last minute stuffs for this whole week that I don't even have the time to blog about one of the biggest decision/action in my life that I have made last Friday. Today....I finally have the time because I have finished all the work....yiiipppeee!!
Well...I'm about to come across one of the biggest transition in life. I'll be working in a new environment. Yes! I have tendered my resignation last Friday. I have just gotten the confirmation letter on my resignation from MTC today. Finally, after 3 years of working here and after 1 1/2 years of job hunting, I found a job that made me felt worthwhile giving up MTC. MTC offers good benefits and the opportunity to travel. Although the pay is peanut but there is no denying that I get to travel to many places and witness different cultures. The new company that I'll be joining is the Society of Petroleum Engineers (SPE). The JD is pretty much the same as what I'm doing now in MTC, except, of course the difference is to serve the oil and gas industry rather than the timber industry.
We can't have the best of both worlds. So, I went for what I think is the most important for my future. Higher pay and salary structure and the opportunity to learn more about other industry while I'm still young. I thought long and hard before I came to this decision. I was quite worried at first, as I'm in the comfort zone, I'm afraid to venture elsewhere. Everything seems good in MTC if you don't think about the peanut pay and the slim promotion chances. Monday to Friday work, clock in and out punctually, no overtime, stress-free, good colleagues, bla bla bla....
But somehow, I guessed it's time to move on. Earlier, I have tried to request for salary adjustment but was rejected. Also, I found out recently that the newbies (fresh grads) who just entered MTC has even higher salary than me for the similar position. Honestly, when I learnt such news, I was a lil' offended by the company's unsystematic/biased move on the staff's salary but am glad at the same time also that I'm finally leaving. There is no chance I can move on to a higher salary range if I'm still in MTC. What was offered to me now by SPE would takes me 7-8 years to achieve in MTC and I will be too old to venture elsewhere by the time. That's why I left. Thanks to hubby and darling sis for the encouragements and supports. Muaks!
My last day will be on the 26th November after deducting my annual leaves. I'll taking 2 weeks of long rest before I start my new job. I'm forgoing my bonus also to join the new company but I guess it's ok, opportunity doesn't comes often and I don't want to miss it. I will earn back in a month or two. I'll be missing all the crazy laughs here, definitely. My friends rather than colleagues, I wished them all well. Especially to Lihar who is the only friend at work that reads my blog (because the others don't know about it), I wish you, "sam siong si sing", hope for what will get what. You know what I meant. :p Remember to inform me even though I'm not around later. I'll be very happy for you. :)
I'm gonna spend my remaining days here in MTC for good!
Well...I'm about to come across one of the biggest transition in life. I'll be working in a new environment. Yes! I have tendered my resignation last Friday. I have just gotten the confirmation letter on my resignation from MTC today. Finally, after 3 years of working here and after 1 1/2 years of job hunting, I found a job that made me felt worthwhile giving up MTC. MTC offers good benefits and the opportunity to travel. Although the pay is peanut but there is no denying that I get to travel to many places and witness different cultures. The new company that I'll be joining is the Society of Petroleum Engineers (SPE). The JD is pretty much the same as what I'm doing now in MTC, except, of course the difference is to serve the oil and gas industry rather than the timber industry.
We can't have the best of both worlds. So, I went for what I think is the most important for my future. Higher pay and salary structure and the opportunity to learn more about other industry while I'm still young. I thought long and hard before I came to this decision. I was quite worried at first, as I'm in the comfort zone, I'm afraid to venture elsewhere. Everything seems good in MTC if you don't think about the peanut pay and the slim promotion chances. Monday to Friday work, clock in and out punctually, no overtime, stress-free, good colleagues, bla bla bla....
But somehow, I guessed it's time to move on. Earlier, I have tried to request for salary adjustment but was rejected. Also, I found out recently that the newbies (fresh grads) who just entered MTC has even higher salary than me for the similar position. Honestly, when I learnt such news, I was a lil' offended by the company's unsystematic/biased move on the staff's salary but am glad at the same time also that I'm finally leaving. There is no chance I can move on to a higher salary range if I'm still in MTC. What was offered to me now by SPE would takes me 7-8 years to achieve in MTC and I will be too old to venture elsewhere by the time. That's why I left. Thanks to hubby and darling sis for the encouragements and supports. Muaks!
My last day will be on the 26th November after deducting my annual leaves. I'll taking 2 weeks of long rest before I start my new job. I'm forgoing my bonus also to join the new company but I guess it's ok, opportunity doesn't comes often and I don't want to miss it. I will earn back in a month or two. I'll be missing all the crazy laughs here, definitely. My friends rather than colleagues, I wished them all well. Especially to Lihar who is the only friend at work that reads my blog (because the others don't know about it), I wish you, "sam siong si sing", hope for what will get what. You know what I meant. :p Remember to inform me even though I'm not around later. I'll be very happy for you. :)
I'm gonna spend my remaining days here in MTC for good!
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