Home Alone with Lunz Last Weekend

I was home alone with Lunz last weekend. Daddy went for his company's team building trip in Port Dickson and spent a night over there. My initial plan was to go back to mum's house for an overnight stay but after the incident, I decided to spend a peaceful time on myself instead, right here at home.

Saturday (9 January 2010)
I woke up at 6.15am to fetch daddy to his office. He was to assembly at his company by 7am. Initially, he wanted to drive my car and left it there. However, my parents wanted to use it instead. So, no choice, I have to wake up this early to fetch him there. Not only me. I took the little one along. Pity little fella. Half awake and half asleep inside the car. I have to bring him along because I can't be leaving him at home alone while I fetched daddy to his office.

After dropping off daddy, I went back home and washed my pile of working clothes while the little one watched the television. Seeing the weather so nice, I took him to the park after that. I even brought along his new bike for him to ride at the park. But the fat fella got tired so quickly. After some time cycling, he gave up and wanted to play with the slides instead. He asked me to join him but I can't leave the bike by itself (afraid people might steal), I watched him play from a distance.

Soon after we left the park, we headed straight for our breakfast. We had tim sum. And by the time we were done, my aunt called, asking me to accompany her for a shopping trip to get a pressie for my birthday. Realizing I have nothing to do for the day, I agreed. I took Lunz to Jusco Maluri. Most of the time I was with him at the play area and when we were done, he was busy with the V-Tech display set pulak. I let him played for about half an hour. He is pretty good at computer games now a days.

We left Jusco without getting anything. Actually my intention was just to spend some time and not really looking forward to her present. In the end, she gave me an angpow. She told me that with the amount of money she gave, I'm able to buy the winter clothing I need for my trip to Sweden. How sweet of her. I checked the angpow later. Although not really very much, but it's the biggest I ever taken from her. 3 digits. I'm going to get her a good souvenir from my trip later. :)

I came home around 1pm and both Lunz and I had a really good nap from 3pm to 5.30pm. Whole day, I have been 'sms'ing daddy. Really missed him a lot. I really can't figured out what to have for dinner, so, I took Lunz to the nearby Jusco (Jusco again!) and had our dinner in the food court. We went home after a short walk. We spent the evening playing computer games and occasionally watching tv. When I ironed the clothes, Lunz did not disturbed me. He watched tv on his own. When he is with either one of us, he really behaves. Very good boy. But not when both of us are around.

Mum and dad dropped by around 10.30pm to get my car and just to peep if I'm alright. We talked for awhile and then, they left. Mum wanted to stay for the night but knowing her, she can't sleep in bed that doesn't belongs to her. So, I told her I will be fine and not to worry instead. She asked me to give a call if anything happens. Lunz went to bed about 11pm and I talked on the phone with daddy for a short while. According to daddy, he really had a fun and good time with his friends. He got to do a lot of physical activities like treasure hunt, ping pong, swimming, nice dinner with performance from each group, etc. I mean in a way it's really a good time to relax. Good for the body, mind and soul. Don't think my company will ever have such things like that.

And one thing, the theme for his dinner is FLORA. I searched high and low for a suitable shirt that matches the theme for him. Unfortunately, I really can't find one due to the short time. Daddy said, people who doesn't follow the theme will be punished wor. Out of desperation, I made my own tailoring and design. Sherine Chin Couture. And the funny thing is, daddy is really suen (sour) enough to wear it! Thumbs up for him la!

I cut the flower patterns from a paper bag and stick it one by one on his shirt. It was his idea to cut that 2 big flower shape instead.

See....damn suen la. He purposely stick the 2 flowers on his chest! OMG, of all the place. Hahaha... and he really dares to wear it in front of everybody during the dinner.

His big boss actually asked him, "Are those flowers or tits?" Muahahahaa!!!

He was nominated together with 2 of his colleagues to go on stage to compete for the best dressed by performing cat walk. Unfortunately, he did not get the most best dressed! Which makes me lost another RM100 Parkson cash voucher! Ish..ish...

Even though I wasn't there, I can feel the fun based on what daddy told me. They have plenty of free time, so they actually get to relax and have fun. They get to swim and did their own activities unlike most team buildings are only training intensive.

Most of all, you get free meals, you get to play and enjoy and the most important part, you get goodies! He got a goodie backpack, a miniature toy for Lunz and for me....must highlight the most important benefit of joining this trip. I got FREE CASH VOUCHERS! RM 100 Jusco, RM 100 Parkson and RM 50 IKEA. I can spend like mad already.

Alright! Back to me and Lunz, we had a real good sleep that night until 8.30am on the following day. Without waking up!


Sunday (10 January 2010)
I did some house chores in the morning. Sweep and mop the floor. I even washed the toilets. When I finished, I brought Lunz to IOI Mall. I wanted to get some winter socks from Daiso. Cheap le ma. The quality also not too bad. We had our breakfast there, walked awhile and returned home by 12 something. We stayed at home until daddy called around 2.10pm and told me he will reached an hour later. Since, I still have some time, I prepared my winter clothing for my trip this coming Sunday. I took some of the stuffs out from the wardrobe and tried it on. The little one saw me putting on the hat and the scarf. You know what he said?

Ohhh....it's snowing! (How come he knows that those are for winter use? Hehe.)

I managed to get him to pose for me while I took some pictures of him with the scarf and hat on.


When it was almost time, I brought the little one out and managed to grab ourselves 2 chocotop ice-cream cone from McD drive thru while waiting for daddy's bus to arrive at his company. Daddy reached around 3.15pm and we left for home after that. Even it's just a night, I missed him so much. And that particular night is the longest night ever. Wonder if he feels the same when I leave for Sweden later?

Head Over Heels in Love Again

How is it like to fall head over heels in love with the same person you ever loved? It's like a magical feeling of discovering something familiar back when you thought you have earlier lost it. It's like the same feeling when you have found back your own bunny toy when in earlier days you don't know where in the hell you have chuck it. Seeing the bunny brings back all the same memories and feelings you once had....

Falling in love again with the same person that has been with you for many odd years is not easy. Keeping love alive all the time is not always easy. A couple who has been together for many years for example, like our parents, the thing that keeps them together is responsibility apart from love. In a relationship, love does not exist on its own. How many couples on earth can keep the fire burning between them in years? I would say hardly. It is the understanding and responsibility that keeps a relationship running. Of course, love has to be there. What I am merely speaking here is the spark. Can we keep the spark existing most of the time? It takes a lot of effort from both parties. And like it or not, most of us tend to neglect this point which lead to the shortfall of betraying each other in a relationship. If only we can appreciate each other more and fork out some efforts to keep the spark alive once in a while, we will definitely enjoy a fruitful and long loving relationship.

Mind you, I'm not talking about my relationship here. I have always love daddy and it feels good sometimes to have that little spark burning there. It can be anything. From a dinner together, a movie together, messages, kisses and cuddles when you are half way in a middle of a sleep, little gifts, laughter, surprises and even a fulfilling lovemaking session together. It keeps the love burning and alive for years to come.

"When you thought that you have lost the relationship that you treasured so much, you have changed into someone else. Of course, you are stronger, but that's not the real you. You have let this new person to rule your old self completely. On the surface you might appeared to be strong and hard, but you are empty inside. You behave so because you have lost the love that you once had, you thought you wouldn't be able to find it back again. You were protective of yourself, shielding yourself from getting hurt. This has transformed you into a different person.

But when you have found back the same old love recently after so many years of disappointment, I noticed that there is a change in you. You are back to the old person that I once knew. You are different now. You felt contented. It is that particular love that affects you all this while. I knew it all along and you kept on denying it in the first place because you were unable to face the truth. But I'm proud you are willing to face it now, willing to give it a second try. And you are much happier. I truly hope for the best outcome for you. May you be able to cherish this love that you have been yearning for, all this while, all this long. God bless you"

Now, you know how is it like to fall in love again and again with that same person that you have loved for so long.

Daddy, do you know that I fall in love with you everyday?









Of course, except for the times that you seriously annoyed me. Hehehe....

Big Row With Brother

One good thing about having a blog is that you can pour out everything that's in your mind into the blog without fearing what other people would think, what other people would comment because that's your blog! You are free to write and post whatever you want. You have the right and no one can judge you for that. Having a blog is also a good way of conveying messages that you can't say it face to face with that particular person. You don't have to tell and yet he or she knows because they follows your blog. It's also good for your soul. You can blurt out all your unhappiness when no one is listening to you. At least you wouldn't erupt like the volcano when you keep things buried in your heart. That's some advantages of blogging.

I just wanna say at this very moment I missed my sis in Makati very much. In fact, every moment when I feel like talking to her, I'll miss her. I can't just pick up the phone now and talk to her because she's practically so far away and even if I do, by the time I really let her know what's happening to me, we have to put down the phone already. I mean I wouldn't wanna waste my precious calls just by telling her what had happened to me. So, it's good I can put it down here.

She is always the first person that I can tell her my problems besides daddy. She has with me for over 10 years, know everything about me, understands me and I always felt better after talking to her.

Well, sis. I had a big row with my younger bro just now. What breaks my heart the most is despite my effort to mend the relationships with my brothers, it was not appreciated. These people don't see. So, after this fight onwards, like it or not, I don't want to care anymore about them. I don't want to put anymore effort in these relationships when all you get in return is heartache. Let them zi gei hou chi wai zi. It's useless for me to care about them, to try to be good to them when in fact they never treat me as their sister after all. I just care and be there for my parents, and that's it. All this while, I tried to make my mum happy by being nice to them. But now, I know I can't do it anymore.

Let me just say, if brothers and sisters relationship and love is strong, will they quarrel just because of small matters? For example, my big bro invited us to go to his house for his son's birthday and in the end we wanted to have it celebrated in my mum's house instead and he thought it was my idea and we fight over it. Or another example, when the children fight, I sounded meimei because practically she started the fight, I was scolded for 'ku ng tim ji gei ge chai chow hui gu yan dei ge lui' when all I did as an aunt was just to teach my own niece. I mean what the hell, we are no strangers. We are a family. I teach because I care, not because 'ngor gu ng tim chi gei ge chai' nothing to do 'lei gu lei ge lui'. If brothers and sisters love is strong, we wouldn't even fight over the children. How ridiculous!

It all started with that meimei stepping on lunz's finger while he was trying to wear his shoes. So, I warned her off and this has sparked dislike in my brother. I did not noticed the dislike earlier. I had already left mum's house when I realized I forgot to take Lunz's uniform and headed back up again to take it. I heard him shouting at my mum like a crazy dog from the staircase. I went back inside and asked what was the fight all about. I told the crazy dog nicely, whatever you don't like you talk to me, don't shout at the mother like that. I was shocked when he raised his voice angrily and loud, shouting from beneath his lungs that who am I to scold his daughter!

Crazy dog: Chi gei ge chai dou ku ng tim, chow ng mou ku yan dei ge lui.
Me: I didn't even beat her, I just sounded her only because she started it.
Crazy dog: Lunz started it, you never say anything.
Me: I also scold him what.
Crazy dog: Lunz is naughty to meimei also I never say anything. Why you go and say things now.
Me: I never barred you from scolding Lunz if he is wrong. Children fight kor chow suen ge la. Like this also you want to put it in your heart.
Crazy dog: You also know how to say la, children fight, then why you go and scold my daughter!

NGOR CHAR DOU....

Me: I scold because I care as an aunt.
Crazy dog: No, thank you! Lei ku tim chi gei ge chai sin le! The daughter is mine, none of your business.
Me: Don't you dare shout at your mother like that again.
Crazy dog: The mother is also mine. You don't have to teach me what to do (As if saying, the mother is mine also, I have the right to scold as when and where I want)

Mum kept pushing me to leave. The fella has gone crazy. He was shouting most of the time. I can't stand him, I shouted back at him also. He nearly want to hit me when I was standing right in front of him. I told myself at that time, you lay your hands on me and that's it. I will make police report and that's the end of our relationship! But he managed to hold back. In the end, I left because mum kept on pushing me to the front door. But when I was going down the staircase, I can still hear his voice. What he said to my mum, I don't really know. But I think he dare not hit her because I knew my mum will do something if he did. She isn't a person that will keep quiet.

Blardy hell...this kind of people is so heartless. With his manners, he never respect and treat me as his older sister. So, that's it. I don't want to waste my energy on these people anymore.

Daddy has brought up the idea to let Lunz stay in childcare until I picked him up after work. In short, don't let my mum babysit him anymore. Less encounter, less the quarrel. I'm still considering. I even asked daddy to look after lunz at night while I'm in Sweden, don't let him stay behind with my mum because I'm afraid what the crazy dog might do later if the children fights again. I was helpless that I can't do much for mum and dad. I told daddy, I can't go back in the circle anymore, and if you also don't care for me, there is no where I can head to....

My Very Very Early Birthday Celebration

Happy New Year!!

To make the New Year celebration a lot more merrier, I decided to celebrate my birthday on 03.01.10, which is today. In fact, I just got home from mum's place. Had a huge dinner there plus a cake blowing session. Wow....erm....well, the actual fact is I didn't really wanted to celebrate my birthday this early. Everybody is practically busy next weekend. Daddy has to attend his company's team building in Port Dickson and mum has to attend a wedding dinner. The following week I'm off to Sweden. Gonna spend my birthday there......in the cold.....grrrr........alone.....woo, woo, woo......*sigh*

Work is work, but if you ask me I did prefer to stay cozy at home and celebrate my birthday with my loved ones. Here are some of the pictures of today's dinner:

Everybody is busy setting up the table for dinner.

Good ol' dad spring cleaning his documents.

They were imitating the actors' action in the CNY video

Daddy took his place, ready to attack the food!

Mum's latest grand-daughter.

My Secret Recipe cake from daddy.

Lunz was so busy with the cake.

More like his birthday than mine.

Cake cutting.

Enjoying his piece. Happily finishing the chocolate topping.

My beloved parents...

I got a bra each from mum and younger bro. My big bro gave me a nightie. It's the lady undergarment year! Hahaha....

To daddy----> It's the time of the year again. Don't miss it this time!