Updates and Updates!

Alright....there are lots to catch up in these 2 months. I have abandoned this blog for 2 months! Been super busy. Good news are....I have safely and smoothly delivered a beautiful baby girl and the bad news are, I'm back to work this week and in the process of slimming down! Thank God it's holiday season now and Christmas is approaching. At least, it gives me some encouragement to drag myself to work after 2 long months at home. Let's go by chapters as I've loads to pour in here:

The Labour

It was unexpected. Really! After a gap of 6 years, I told myself that I'm already prepared for the worst, in terms of the pain. But thank God, it was a smooth, fast and safe delivery. I had the contractions coming in midnight after a vaginal examination by my gynae during the day. Touching dawn, I woke hubby up and told him the contractions were coming stronger but still manageable (we still have the time). We immediately sent Sebastian to my mum's house. Poor sleepy boy. But he was such a good boy and he understood what was happening. Hence, he did not threw any tantrum at all. This time I was smart. I asked hubby to bring me for my breakfast first before admitting into the hospital. My past experience was, I did not have a proper breakfast. Hence, not enough energy to push and drained myself in the end. As the contractions were still manageable, I nicely had my pork noodle and teh tarik first. Shortly after admitting, my gynae arrived and did a check for me. He told me I was 4cm dilated and he will induced me. Why should I wait any longer when I'm already full term (38 weeks) and 4cm dilated, he told me. Then, he said, "Today will be your baby's birthdate", which makes me nervous and excited at the same time. Soon, contractions are coming stronger and I asked hubby to rub my back (very effective and highly recommended!) to reduce the pain. Until the moment I can no longer bear the pain (with all the tears and sweat), I requested for epidural. Midwife gave me a quick check and told me to 'tahan' only la. I was already 8cm dilated. Not enough time for an epidural and why should I waste 1k for epidural, might as well go for a good meal, she said. Then, everything seems so painful, out of the world and fast. The next thing I could felt was the baby out from me and later the placenta. I told hubby, it was so comfortable the moment after delivering the placenta. He told me later the whole delivery process (from the moment the doctor walked in until finished), it took only about 15 minutes. I was admitted about 8am and I delivered 2 hours later at 10am. It was fast and unexpected! And the lucky thing was, I had no tear. Hence, no stitches required. It was a smooth one and I was discharged after a night stay, although my delivery package was 3D2N stay but nothing was more comfortable than home sweet home.

The Baby

I'll post her photos in the next post. Well, as similar with other newborns, her routine were pretty much the same. Eat, shit, sleep. First month, she sleeps alot and can't differentiate day and night. There were nights when I had to stay awake whole night, just because she didn't sleep. But luckily she has adjusted her biological clock now. Second month, we saw her first smile and ooo ooo ahh ahh. And the most award winning action we got from her is her cries every night before bed. Up till now, she cries every night hopelessly before bedtime. We do not know what's the reason. We tried everything to make her stop but she will just cry until she had enough. Then, she will drift peacefully to sleep till morning, only waking up for milk. In contra, every morning she loves to smile at the first sight of our faces. Keep the morning part but both daddy and I are wondering when will the night part of the crying gonna end? Hopefully she changes her pattern soon as it is quite tiring looking after a what-also-don't-want-crying baby.

The Brother

Having our undivided love for 6 years, suddenly he has to adjust to me not paying enough attention to him (as I need to take care of the baby!). I tried to attend to him whenever I can but luckily I have a hubby who will look after him for me. Daddy will attend to his needs whenever I'm not free to do so. Surely, my boy must have felt that I've neglected him and sometimes seeing him playing alone by himself, dare not to disturb me really made my heartache. There were times during my confinement month that I had depression. Regrets and bad feelings that I had abandoned my boy. Like for example, previously, I have to sleep with the baby in another room as she wakes up most of the time at night. I used to sleep with my boy in the same room and I can't anymore (as the baby's crying will disturb his sleep). There were nights he looked for me and wanted me to sleep with him as usual, but I can't. Those scenarios really made me cried. I never realized how hard it is to cope with having more than 1 children until now when I had 2. Jesus, I used to say my mum loves my brothers more than myself. How ungrateful was that? As a mother of 2 myself, now only I knew how a mother would feel if her children says she loves one more than another. Wished I could take back those ungrateful words. But a mother has all the love in her heart for her children. Well, my boy is coping very well now and has adjusted to the fact that his little sister is a part of his life. He is doing well, he loves his lil sister very much by showing affections such as kissing her and petting her hair. I believe parents should always make the effort of showing love and attention to their children as equally as possible. Thankfully, I have a hubby who shares the same thought and responsibilities with me.

The Father

Doing pretty good and very helpful with the baby.

I'll share her photos in the next post!